living worship

God has been so amazing, teaching me so many new things. For most of the summer I have been in a funk, in one of those seasons that you know you have to go through, but wish it was over cause it hurts to bad. Truth is, I got this idea into my head, that God loves me, but he doesnt want to provide for me. So i wouldnt let him. I fought with him most of the summer, I held onto ideas that i knew were not true, and i held on to a dream that i knew God told me to let go. But i didnt want to, I became stubborn, I became prideful, I thought I knew best. BIG MISTAKE. The wonderful thing about God, is that he does know best and he IS in control. He had to break me, He took away the one thing I wanted most, but Ive never been more thankful. Because of that, I was able to open my hands up to recieve the things HE wanted to give me. I am giving things up to him, and by doing that is an act of worship, I am trusting him, I am COMPLETELY believing that he will provide, and I am worshiping him with my heart.